February 2012
8 posts
breakin' the law;
In California, no vehicle without a driver may exceed 60 miles per hour.
In Florida, if an elephant, goat or alligator is left tied to a parking meter, the parking fee has to be paid just as it would for a vehicle.
In Montana, it is illegal to have a sheep in the back of your truck without a chaperone.
In Oregon, a door on a car may not be left open longer than necessary.
In Tennessee, it is...
January 2012
5 posts
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gratitude
Seventy-five milligrams of Benadryl a day. I’m a goddamn zombie. I’m not even a zombie. I’m just sleepwalking my way through the next fourteen days. I’ll do my best to be articulate, but if this ends with a run-on sentence, I’m just asleep at the keyboard. I sat in the hallway of the interventional radiology department waiting to get a picc placed, and...
December 2011
8 posts
megace;
is a miracle drug. I’ve gained back seven pounds since I was discharged from the hospital; nearly a pound a week since I started the medicine a month ago. I came home at a whopping ninety-six pounds; I was skin and bones.
I know a lady isn’t supposed to tell her weight, but this is cause for celebration - I’m back at one-hundred and three, and continuing to gain. The...
Today is one of those days where I realize my mortality and quickly shrink away from the idea.
Being alive is so enticing, and my attachment to my body is quite strong.
My lung function isn’t improving, and neither is my weight. I’m at the point of needing a transplant, and I keep avoiding the conversation, because maybe if I ignore it, it won’t exist. My lungs will heal...
“The birds have vanished into the sky,
And now the last cloud drains away.
We...”
– Li Po
November 2011
9 posts
manifest;
For the past few days, or if I’m really honest with the internet world, for the past few months, I’ve had a fear-ridden inner dialogue dictating what I feel I can and can’t do.
I have been allowing my fear of: lung transplant, ventilator, surgery, hemoptysis, failure, not to mention a sudden onset of insecurity in myself, to completely shape my mindset.
Unfortunately, I think...
It’s beginning to feel festive!~
vampires, oh my;
Ohhhh yes, I’m excited for Twilight. And Jacob. Mostly Jacob…
And no, I have zero shame. ;)
Good morning, World
My dad and I sat in two yellow chairs, watching our dog frolic and play in the early morning sun. After hours of sleep, the vast world of Back Yard had to be thoroughly re-discovered. I sipped my tea, while my dad drank a cuppa joe from his Christmas mug, and we watched with sleepy eyes the water floating by in the canal.
Three dolphins appeared, their fins skating the edge of the water, and...
October 2011
5 posts
Ideally, my life would have less hospitals, and more days spent by the beach, and less PICC lines, and more hikes in the woods, and less hospital food, and more Bueno y Sano…
But this is what I’ve been given. And I have two choices. One, focus on the negative, or two, embrace the positives.
I’m grateful for my family, I’ve got beautiful friends that are always there...
acceptance;
My head is a lead balloon. That’s the colistimethate sodium talking, drug one of five in my medicinal cocktail provided thoughtfully for me, patient #18561596etcetc, by the doctors at Tampa General Hospital. It wasn’t easier the second time around, like I had originally thought. I was under the impression that life altering news is easier to take after being dealt the blow...
September 2011
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August 2011
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July 2011
9 posts
nearly a month;
and we’re getting grumpy. Tight living space in the car, short tempers, and overtired bodies are not the greatest combination.
I guess we knew what we were getting into, though, and I can’t say I’m too bothered by it. The positives far outweigh our moodiness, and Washington state is something out of a dream.
After Oregon, and its green, eco-friendly charm, we drove north to...
California,
your beauty is blowing my mind.
We’re nearly at the top of this lovely, large state, and I have seen more in these last few days than my mind can process. Santa Barbara and its lush, flowery, mansion-lined hills. Monterey, with its cool sea breeze and perpetual fog. And of course, Big Sur, with cliffs of jaw-dropping proportion, and no guard-rails.. and sights that extend to the edge of...
Did you know,
that Arizona has thousands of acres of pine filled forests? And thunderstorms? And miles upon miles of vistas and soaring sights from the 7000ft. high mountain pass roads?
I’m sitting on a bed in a town over a mile high too enchanted to sleep. I’m in another time zone and can’t even count how many miles have been driven. And now that I’ve seen the west, I’m not...
Hi from the desert;
Seeing as how I’m in New Mexico, and have arrived at an early hour, I thought I’d take a few minutes to plug back in to the internet world.
Driving across the country is a wonderful way to disconnect. Who needs Facebook when there’s Mississippi and Tennessee, Arkansas and Oklahoma, Texas and New Mexico outside the window?
Not I.
The terrain has slowly transitioned from lush, green hills to...
June 2011
14 posts
and now, we wait
Packing, packing, packing. And organizing, separating, folding, washing, etc.
I’ve got laundry soap, a first-aid kit, a cooler, shorts, sunscreen, bug spray, flip-flops and my trusty hiking boots, along with a water canteen, a hat, a camera and tripod, and a road atlas extraordinaire. Not to mention a pretty dress and a pair of killer heels (bought on super sale!) for those inevitable...
