December 2011
8 posts
megace;
is a miracle drug. I’ve gained back seven pounds since I was discharged from the hospital; nearly a pound a week since I started the medicine a month ago. I came home at a whopping ninety-six pounds; I was skin and bones.
I know a lady isn’t supposed to tell her weight, but this is cause for celebration - I’m back at one-hundred and three, and continuing to gain. The...
Today is one of those days where I realize my mortality and quickly shrink away from the idea.
Being alive is so enticing, and my attachment to my body is quite strong.
My lung function isn’t improving, and neither is my weight. I’m at the point of needing a transplant, and I keep avoiding the conversation, because maybe if I ignore it, it won’t exist. My lungs will heal...
“The birds have vanished into the sky,
And now the last cloud drains away.
We...”
– Li Po
